A new year is at our doorstep. A new time God has allowed us to enjoy with our family, our church, our friends. It's that kind of year when God is calling many of us to take a step into a new level of faith, the type of faith that requires total submission to God. There
have been many times in my life when God has called me to do the unexpected; in ministry, in my family life, and in my
personal life. I’d like to share with you a time when the Holy Spirit
made his will sweet in my life.
About 6 years ago, I was a blessed to be part of a wonderful church. There were many talented musicians and
singers. Unfortunately, all of a sudden some of the musicians moved, others left the church and
slowly we began to lose all the talented people in the worship band. It was no
longer a band as there was only one musician, the drummer.
My pastor asked me to join the worship group
but I didn’t feel that I could sing very well and I didn’t play any
instruments. However, I obeyed the pastor and joined the group. The group
didn’t have a leader and nobody volunteered to lead it, so after a couple of months, the pastor asked me to become the leader. I was hesitant to do this because after all, I had no music knowledge. How can I lead them? But in submission to God, I accepted.
I became the leader of a
group of people who wanted to worship God through music but had no training and little talent. I was not too encouraged. I didn’t want to be a leader of a group like this and I didn’t
have the training to get things going. I cried every night and prayed that God
would send musicians and singers to the band, but nothing happened. So I prayed and waited.
Later that year,
my mother-in-law gave my oldest son an electric piano for Christmas because she
wanted him to begin taking piano lessons. When I saw the electric piano I felt the Lord
speak to my heart and tell me “You will worship me with this instrument”. I
thought… “I don’t know how to play the piano; I will make a fool of myself. How
can I possible think that I can stand up in front of the congregation, play an instrument and lead
worship? I’m not called for that” I put God's calling aside and continue to rehearse
the worship team with prerecorded tracks on a CD.
During one of those rehearsals, one of the team members suggested that we do one day of prayer and
fasting. She felt we needed it, we were practically putting people to sleep during services! So we did it, we got together and prayed. That day as we were reading God's Word, a passage spoke to my heart. It read “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a
holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him
who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light” (1 Peter 2:9). I understood that He
had chosen me for such time as this. God chose me to lead this group of people
and He would glorify Himself through us.
I got home and took the keyboard and
prayed. I asked the Lord to help me learn how to play this instrument. I didn’t
have any money for piano lessons, so I took my computer and searched for free piano
lessons. I came across various videos on YouTube with mini lessons and I began to
use them. I started to practice every single day. To make a long story short; God helped me to learn chords rather quickly. I
began to play the piano and sing at the same time in just a couple of months.
And every time I did it, it was as if I was someone else. God would take over
and use me like I never imagined He could. In less than 4 months I was leading
worship at the church and the presence of God was felt during every service.
About a year later a friend and a professional guitar player, came
to visit. He went to one of our practices and couldn’t believe
what God was doing with our group. I told him the testimony and he was in awe. He told me how playing
an instrument and singing at the same time was not a simple task and required
much practice, and was amazed how I could do it without any trouble. The most
amazing thing was that I didn’t even take real lessons. It was all God at work.
I never thought that at my age I would be able to learn to play an instrument so quickly and without much assistance. But God honored my faithful submission to His call and glorified Himself in my life. I never saw myself as a musician, but God had other plans for my life. I allowed God to take control and He showed me that he can "chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things--and the things that are not--to nullify the things that are" (1 Corinthians 1:28). He chose me, a grown woman, mother of three, without any previous knowledge of music, to be the leader of a band and worship Him through music. Praise God for His perfect plans.
Yup! that's me on the keyboard.
“Do
not think that loving submission to God in consecration does away with your
personhood. Far from it; loving submission is the way to find your true
personhood, your true self.” (Tracy 89). I had to put my fears and own plans
aside and faithfully submitted to God’s plans for my life. I found out that I had this
musical ability that I would have never noticed if I wouldn’t have allowed God
to take control of my life. I am so thankful that God used my
pastor to lead me into God’s purpose for my life. I am happy that I chose to
submit rather than rebel against His will for my life.
My dear woman of God. This year a challenge you to take the step of faith God has called you to make. To submit to His will and calling. To rest in His arms and know that He's in control and His plans are perfect for your life.
